Hey guys! Haven't posted in forever...sorry. Here's a quick update.
Writing:
Not really. Had some pretty awesome application and scholarship essays, though.
Fitness:
A little. I've been doing a once-a-week Jiu Jitsu/women's self defense class with two of my friends from debate. It's only an hour once a week, but ohmygod it's like the most painful hour of my life. I've never actually worked out for real, and I don't know what I was expecting, but I about died ten minutes into the first class. It's fun though! So I'm always torn between being excited or scared. Today's the last class, but I might see if they have any other programs like this one. I don't have the time to go all-out into martial arts or anything, but I'd love a weekend fitness class.
Food:
Ate so much chocolate. Not what I was supposed to do, but I am so happy about it that I don't even care. I'll try to do better this week.
Have been drinking a good amount of water. Not as much this week since I had a five day tournament, but when I'm in my normal life I'm drinking a lot.
Still snacking all the time. I'll try to work on that, too.
Still no soda or fast food!
Even though I've been eating terribly, I've lost two pounds since I weighed myself last month. Weiiird. I don't think it could be from working out, since I don't do enough to really make a difference. Maybe the soda/water swap is responsible? I don't know.
WEEKLY CHALLENGE:
No desserts this week. Including chocolate bars.
One of my friends gave up desserts for lent. It looks awful, but she's been giving me all her desserts so I've been very happy. Yay atheism! But I think I might try to last a week without it.
OTHER STUFF
Sorry I abandoned this blog for a while. I'm trying to get back on top of everything. I still might not be able to be fully back since I have a couple essays and two new classes starting. So busy with school. But work is over for the year, so I should have more free time than normal! Especially once Nationals is over.
I am sad work is over. I loved my job. I'm going to miss my students. Hopefully I'll be able to visit the team once in a while. I'm trying to find a new coach to replace me, and I think I've got Jakob lined up to take the job. I really hope it works out, he's one of the best people I know to take over. The team would be in great hands if he's able to take over. But I'm jealous! I don't want to leave SA yet.
What else....ummmm. I don't have too much to say. I was sick for like a week straight. Just a cold or something. Still trying to get over the cough. Gahhh. Maybe that's why I lost weight? Though I use sickness as a chance to gorge my face, so I doubt it. Make me better.
Anyway, I have to leave for Jiu Jitsu soon. I'll try to have a new post this week, if I can get through my essays and DI cutting.
How have you guys been doing?
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Motivation
So I've been having some motivation issues, so I've been thinking of how to get back to where I want to be. I'm posting my ideas here; let me know if you have any suggestions!
1. Post my weight on the updates? Losing weight is obviously a motivator for being healthier and everything, but when I'm the only one who knows it I don't really hold myself to it too much. If I put it with the weekly updates it might push me to try to improve week to week.
2. Joint goals? Teaming up with someone to hit the same goal would be helpful. They could be time-based (for 1 week we will ___), or finish based (we'll both complete ____). Would anyone want to try something with me? Especially fitness ones, if we each vowed to run or work out or whatever for a certain amount of time for a week or something.
3. Buying ingredients for better food. I just go off of whatever we happen to have in the house, which isn't always healthy. Especially since I'm so picky, if I don't feel like going all-out and doing a ton of cooking, there's usually not much as far as meals that I should be eating. If I made sure to have better stuff in the house it'd probably help. Like veggie wrap ingredients!
4. Make a list of the things I want to keep up for. I lose sight of my goals, but when I remember why I want to improve myself it gets a bit easier. I just need a list of motivations. To redeem myself on the pull-up bar at Kouji's house, to feel awesome in a swimsuit, to not be the weakest person in the entire world, or whatever else I think of.
5. Make a list of my "triggers," and make sure not to chance them. I know the things that will set me off to really unhealthy actions, but I always think I can get reaaaaally close to them but still resist. Which I can't. Like, if I go to Adel's, I will order a plate of nachos bigger than my head and I will eat all of them. I'll tell myself I'll order something else, but as soon as I'm in the diner I just slip into ordering the same thing. So I need to avoid it as much as I can.
What do you guys do to keep motivated?
1. Post my weight on the updates? Losing weight is obviously a motivator for being healthier and everything, but when I'm the only one who knows it I don't really hold myself to it too much. If I put it with the weekly updates it might push me to try to improve week to week.
2. Joint goals? Teaming up with someone to hit the same goal would be helpful. They could be time-based (for 1 week we will ___), or finish based (we'll both complete ____). Would anyone want to try something with me? Especially fitness ones, if we each vowed to run or work out or whatever for a certain amount of time for a week or something.
3. Buying ingredients for better food. I just go off of whatever we happen to have in the house, which isn't always healthy. Especially since I'm so picky, if I don't feel like going all-out and doing a ton of cooking, there's usually not much as far as meals that I should be eating. If I made sure to have better stuff in the house it'd probably help. Like veggie wrap ingredients!
4. Make a list of the things I want to keep up for. I lose sight of my goals, but when I remember why I want to improve myself it gets a bit easier. I just need a list of motivations. To redeem myself on the pull-up bar at Kouji's house, to feel awesome in a swimsuit, to not be the weakest person in the entire world, or whatever else I think of.
5. Make a list of my "triggers," and make sure not to chance them. I know the things that will set me off to really unhealthy actions, but I always think I can get reaaaaally close to them but still resist. Which I can't. Like, if I go to Adel's, I will order a plate of nachos bigger than my head and I will eat all of them. I'll tell myself I'll order something else, but as soon as I'm in the diner I just slip into ordering the same thing. So I need to avoid it as much as I can.
What do you guys do to keep motivated?
Weekly Update: 2/5/2012
Pretty much re-read last week's update and you'll know where I am, haha. But I've made small stuff.
I think I have a pretty good idea for a schedule, but it's been hard to sort out since I haven't had work yet. But I start work again this week, so I'll see how I need to edit my life when that happens.
WRITING:
Yeaaaaaah.
FOOD:
Yeaaaaaaaaaaaah.
FITNESS:
I think you would all see this as a successful week if you knew just how hard and exhausting tournaments are. But I don't think anyone besides people in forensics understand how much mental and physical exhaustion comes from it. But besides the tournament I didn't really do much.
WEEKLY CHALLENGES:
1. Still no soda!
2. Didn't really get back into anything, as you can see. Oh well, awesome weekend, so who cares, haha.
3. Not really a weekly challenge, but somehow I lost a pound despite my terrible habits lately. Awesome.
NEW CHALLENGE:
1. Get back on track, for real this time.
2. Exercise for 10 minutes a day. Not much, but better than nothing.
Hopefully I'll have another post soon, I want to post about my tournament! It was so awesome. Sharpied-on abs and penis witches were involved.
I think I have a pretty good idea for a schedule, but it's been hard to sort out since I haven't had work yet. But I start work again this week, so I'll see how I need to edit my life when that happens.
WRITING:
Yeaaaaaah.
FOOD:
Yeaaaaaaaaaaaah.
FITNESS:
I think you would all see this as a successful week if you knew just how hard and exhausting tournaments are. But I don't think anyone besides people in forensics understand how much mental and physical exhaustion comes from it. But besides the tournament I didn't really do much.
WEEKLY CHALLENGES:
1. Still no soda!
2. Didn't really get back into anything, as you can see. Oh well, awesome weekend, so who cares, haha.
3. Not really a weekly challenge, but somehow I lost a pound despite my terrible habits lately. Awesome.
NEW CHALLENGE:
1. Get back on track, for real this time.
2. Exercise for 10 minutes a day. Not much, but better than nothing.
Hopefully I'll have another post soon, I want to post about my tournament! It was so awesome. Sharpied-on abs and penis witches were involved.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Weekly Update: 1/29/2012
So not a good week, but oh well! I'll update anyway.
WRITING:
WRITING:
Yeaaaaaaaah. That thing. I didn't get to do any of the posts I was planning on! But I'm trying to get back to it. Just way too busy this week.
FOOD:
FOOD:
Ate terribly. Tons of junk food. Probably from being busy and my self-justification. "I have a migraine, so I deserve this donut." Or, "I had to write a paper today, so I deserve all the food in the house." Still no soda, though! Which was really hard this weekend since I had a tournament, and soda is the easiest thing to fuel up on. But I resistedddd, woo! Also, ate horribly at the tournament, but that's pretty much a given when 98% of the "good" food you can get on-campus on such short notice is filled with gluten. One of my new teammates introduced me to veggie wraps at sandwich places, though! Lettuce, avocado, turkey, mozzarella cheese, and olives. It was pretty good, despite never really having eaten avocado before. Though I'm pretty sure mozzarella still isn't good for you, haha.
Drank less water, too. A lot of it was from losing my water cup, though. If I have a straw I can down water, so when I had a reusable cup with one that I could bring places it was easy. But I think I left it at Daniel's house, so I cut back a lot. Found a reusable water bottle with an opening that's almost as easy as the straw for me to drink mindlessly, so that helped. Not sure why I'm so picky about how I drink water, but if it's just in a normal cup I'll only take a couple sips of it. I forgot my water bottle when I went to the tournament though, but I did run to the water fountains a ton when I got thirsty.
FITNESS:
Hahaha, funny. Didn't really do anything to focus on Though, tournaments are much more physically demanding than you'd think. Running up and down stairs trying to find rooms, power walking across campuses to get to your round on time, standing all of prep time so you can sprint back and forth between prep "camps," straight out sprinting to use the bathroom so you can be back to the room before they announce topic, plus all the adrenaline getting you hyped up the whole time. And personally, I put on music and dance all around our prep room before rounds to wake myself up (IT'S SUPER SEXY GUYS) (ESPECIALLY SINCE I WAS IN FRONT OF FOUR BRAND NEW MEMBERS WHO DON'T KNOW ME YET) (#FirstImpressions). And all of it in heels.
I'm not sure how physically stressful it sounds to others, but everyone I know who's gone to their first tournament was surprised by how much harder it was on them than they expected. "You just talk, right?" turns into "holy crap how the hell do you do this for three days straight my mind is dead and my legs are falling off." It's kind of funny to watch the people who laughed at me for claiming tournaments are exhausting basically die at the end of a two-day tournament that they only have one event in. Average for me are three-day tournaments with at least three events. Very little sleep, not much food, constantly on my feet or running around. The only time you really get to sit is during a debate when it's not your turn to speak, but then you're furiously writing and thinking of all the arguments you're going to have to put back against things like the brink of economic collapse, or the likelihood of Assad following through with his missile threats, or if we should negotiate with the Taliban in Qatar, or all these other world interactions.
WEEKLY CHALLENGES:
1. Successfully brought lunch to school every day for two weeks. Woo! And now that I've found the joy of veggie wraps I might start doing that to have something more substantial than a random assortment of snacks (hard to pack easy gluten-free meals, since so much of it needs to be cooked or refrigerated).
2. Didn't really get much of a schedule going, since this week was so weird. But I think it'll get easier over the next couple weeks.
3. Still no soda!
NEW CHALLENGE:
Get back on track? After such a useless resolution week, I should probably just focus on getting back to where I'm supposed to be.
Even though I had a pretty off week, I don't care too much. I've been doing well until now, and I'm sure I can get back into what I'm supposed to be doing.
I'm not sure how physically stressful it sounds to others, but everyone I know who's gone to their first tournament was surprised by how much harder it was on them than they expected. "You just talk, right?" turns into "holy crap how the hell do you do this for three days straight my mind is dead and my legs are falling off." It's kind of funny to watch the people who laughed at me for claiming tournaments are exhausting basically die at the end of a two-day tournament that they only have one event in. Average for me are three-day tournaments with at least three events. Very little sleep, not much food, constantly on my feet or running around. The only time you really get to sit is during a debate when it's not your turn to speak, but then you're furiously writing and thinking of all the arguments you're going to have to put back against things like the brink of economic collapse, or the likelihood of Assad following through with his missile threats, or if we should negotiate with the Taliban in Qatar, or all these other world interactions.
WEEKLY CHALLENGES:
1. Successfully brought lunch to school every day for two weeks. Woo! And now that I've found the joy of veggie wraps I might start doing that to have something more substantial than a random assortment of snacks (hard to pack easy gluten-free meals, since so much of it needs to be cooked or refrigerated).
2. Didn't really get much of a schedule going, since this week was so weird. But I think it'll get easier over the next couple weeks.
3. Still no soda!
NEW CHALLENGE:
Get back on track? After such a useless resolution week, I should probably just focus on getting back to where I'm supposed to be.
Even though I had a pretty off week, I don't care too much. I've been doing well until now, and I'm sure I can get back into what I'm supposed to be doing.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Sorry!
Sorry I've been missing all week! Way too busy for my life right now. And I'm leaving for a tournament in about an hour, so I won't be here for two days. On Sunday I'm hoping to have something though! Regular blogging will be resumed when my life stops being so crazy.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Weekly Update: 1/22/2012
Sunday again! Three weeks into the year, time for updates. This was a so-so week, probably because school started up again and I was focused on that more than anything else. Still did okay, though! (Kind of a long post, and not too interesting. Feel free to ignore it!) Comment with how you've been doing so far!
WRITING:
Have some posts, but nothing amazing. Karen's story was pretty great! Ridiculous, but definitely fun to write. But since I've had school and debate, I had to put my story for Danielle on the back burner. Hopefully I can get back to that soon, I really want to finish it! I'm hoping I can get into a good school schedule to make it easier to write more.
FITNESS:
I think I technically kind of did an almost-push up. I don't think I went down quite far enough, but I went down and up better than I had before. I mean, I collapsed and crashed into my nose a second afterwards, but still. Progress. Kind of.
Not much exercise, mostly because of school starting up again and having a migraine all week. I'm in classes all day, and when I get home I just have to sit or lay down to not be in pain. Gahhhhh. It should go away...eventually....probably.....
Still doing a bit here and there, though. Parking farther from places just to walk a bit more, doing a coupe jumping jacks (I want 100 a day, but with a migraine it's more like 1, 2, 3, ohdeargodnodeath), and I've been still working on push-ups every day.
I've been sleeping really well. Since I have to be up at 7 or 7:30 every day, I've been falling asleep around 11 every night. And I'm totally awake when my alarm goes off in the morning. Even on weekends, I keep waking up early and being totally fine with getting up. Weiiiiird. Now I just have to get rid of this migraine and I can actually get up and around in the morning instead of having to take it easy all day.
FOOD:
Still no soda! Two weeks without it, and I haven't been missing it at all. Though, yesterday I was super tempted because I went to get lunch with Mariah during a debate tournament, and the restaurant we found had a super weird soda machine that I wanted to use. But even then, I didn't really want to drink it, I just wanted to use the weird touch-screen soda machine. I also went to the movies a couple days ago, and resisted getting popcorn since I knew it would trigger me into downing a massive soda.
No fast food! I actually hadn't had any in a while anyway, but I know I would have had McDonalds or Burger King or In-N-Out by now if I hadn't decided not to. Especially at school, when all that is so close and all my friends go get it at lunch. All I can eat are fries, soda, and milkshakes, so definitely things to avoid. It's not too hard, though. Fries are good, but whatever, I don't really care if I have them or not. It's more the convenience that makes it difficult. "Five seconds to get cheap food with all my friends before class starts" is so tempting! Bringing my own food has definitely saved me from caving into fast food because of that.
Still drinking a good amount of water. 6-8 glasses a day, I think. And I feel dehydrated when I go too many hours without any, so that keeps me drinking it. I've started liking it more. I used to hate water, and now I crave it more than soda and juice. I still don't particularly enjoy it, but it's not bad and I can drink it mindlessly instead of cringing.
Eating healthyish. Better than before, at least. More vegetables, less junk foods, better-planned meals. Tracking what I eat really helps me figure out what I should be eating. It's easier to realize when I haven't had enough of something, or when I've decided that chocolate=life again.
Weakness: Snickers are the worst. If we have any other form of chocolate, I eat it in normal amounts. If we have Snickers, I'll eat all of them in a day. My mom bought a bag of those little fun-sized ones, and I swear I think I ate the whole thing by myself. Terrible but so worth it.
Accidental food thing: I discovered that the texture of just scrambled egg whites is sooooo much better than the whole egg. I've always liked the taste of eggs, but the texture made me gag. But without the yokes it doesn't feel as gross, so now I've been eating them all the time. I forgot who suggested that I try that, but thank you! Apparently it's also way healthier or something, but that's just a side effect of not wanting to be grossed out by eggs. So delicious.
WEIGHT:
I forgot about this one, haha. I said on the 11th that I wanted to lose a pound or so a week. Since then, I've gone down four or five, I think. But I'm pretty sure it's all from drinking water. We'll see if it changes from there.
WEEKLY CHALLENGE(S):
My first challenge was to bring lunch to school every day for two weeks. I'm only a week into school, but so far I've done it every day. It's much easier than hunting for good gluten-free food near campus. And like I said before, without having my own lunch I'm sure I would have been eating In-N-Out, McDonalds, and Panda Express with my friends instead of pasta, macaroni, bread rolls, fruit, jello, yogurt, and turkey. I'm still not sure how good for me any of my food is, but it's leagues better than french fries or fried rice.
My non-official challenge was to see if I could lift the 15lb weights. And the answer is: nope! Figured, haha. I think most of it really is that I can't do much with a migraine, so I've only touched them a few times. I can do two or three curls with them before I have to set them down because of my head. I'll make this a long-term one, I'll just post whenever I move up to heavier weights.
NEW (NON-OFFICIAL) CHALLENGE:
I still want other things to work on in addition to bringing food to school, since I don't feel like I'm doing much with just that. So for this week, I just want to get a schedule down to make balancing school and goals easier.
That's all the updates I have this week. Don't forget to comment with your progress!
WRITING:
Have some posts, but nothing amazing. Karen's story was pretty great! Ridiculous, but definitely fun to write. But since I've had school and debate, I had to put my story for Danielle on the back burner. Hopefully I can get back to that soon, I really want to finish it! I'm hoping I can get into a good school schedule to make it easier to write more.
FITNESS:
I think I technically kind of did an almost-push up. I don't think I went down quite far enough, but I went down and up better than I had before. I mean, I collapsed and crashed into my nose a second afterwards, but still. Progress. Kind of.
Not much exercise, mostly because of school starting up again and having a migraine all week. I'm in classes all day, and when I get home I just have to sit or lay down to not be in pain. Gahhhhh. It should go away...eventually....probably.....
Still doing a bit here and there, though. Parking farther from places just to walk a bit more, doing a coupe jumping jacks (I want 100 a day, but with a migraine it's more like 1, 2, 3, ohdeargodnodeath), and I've been still working on push-ups every day.
I've been sleeping really well. Since I have to be up at 7 or 7:30 every day, I've been falling asleep around 11 every night. And I'm totally awake when my alarm goes off in the morning. Even on weekends, I keep waking up early and being totally fine with getting up. Weiiiiird. Now I just have to get rid of this migraine and I can actually get up and around in the morning instead of having to take it easy all day.
FOOD:
Still no soda! Two weeks without it, and I haven't been missing it at all. Though, yesterday I was super tempted because I went to get lunch with Mariah during a debate tournament, and the restaurant we found had a super weird soda machine that I wanted to use. But even then, I didn't really want to drink it, I just wanted to use the weird touch-screen soda machine. I also went to the movies a couple days ago, and resisted getting popcorn since I knew it would trigger me into downing a massive soda.
No fast food! I actually hadn't had any in a while anyway, but I know I would have had McDonalds or Burger King or In-N-Out by now if I hadn't decided not to. Especially at school, when all that is so close and all my friends go get it at lunch. All I can eat are fries, soda, and milkshakes, so definitely things to avoid. It's not too hard, though. Fries are good, but whatever, I don't really care if I have them or not. It's more the convenience that makes it difficult. "Five seconds to get cheap food with all my friends before class starts" is so tempting! Bringing my own food has definitely saved me from caving into fast food because of that.
Still drinking a good amount of water. 6-8 glasses a day, I think. And I feel dehydrated when I go too many hours without any, so that keeps me drinking it. I've started liking it more. I used to hate water, and now I crave it more than soda and juice. I still don't particularly enjoy it, but it's not bad and I can drink it mindlessly instead of cringing.
Eating healthyish. Better than before, at least. More vegetables, less junk foods, better-planned meals. Tracking what I eat really helps me figure out what I should be eating. It's easier to realize when I haven't had enough of something, or when I've decided that chocolate=life again.
Weakness: Snickers are the worst. If we have any other form of chocolate, I eat it in normal amounts. If we have Snickers, I'll eat all of them in a day. My mom bought a bag of those little fun-sized ones, and I swear I think I ate the whole thing by myself. Terrible but so worth it.
Accidental food thing: I discovered that the texture of just scrambled egg whites is sooooo much better than the whole egg. I've always liked the taste of eggs, but the texture made me gag. But without the yokes it doesn't feel as gross, so now I've been eating them all the time. I forgot who suggested that I try that, but thank you! Apparently it's also way healthier or something, but that's just a side effect of not wanting to be grossed out by eggs. So delicious.
WEIGHT:
I forgot about this one, haha. I said on the 11th that I wanted to lose a pound or so a week. Since then, I've gone down four or five, I think. But I'm pretty sure it's all from drinking water. We'll see if it changes from there.
WEEKLY CHALLENGE(S):
My first challenge was to bring lunch to school every day for two weeks. I'm only a week into school, but so far I've done it every day. It's much easier than hunting for good gluten-free food near campus. And like I said before, without having my own lunch I'm sure I would have been eating In-N-Out, McDonalds, and Panda Express with my friends instead of pasta, macaroni, bread rolls, fruit, jello, yogurt, and turkey. I'm still not sure how good for me any of my food is, but it's leagues better than french fries or fried rice.
My non-official challenge was to see if I could lift the 15lb weights. And the answer is: nope! Figured, haha. I think most of it really is that I can't do much with a migraine, so I've only touched them a few times. I can do two or three curls with them before I have to set them down because of my head. I'll make this a long-term one, I'll just post whenever I move up to heavier weights.
NEW (NON-OFFICIAL) CHALLENGE:
I still want other things to work on in addition to bringing food to school, since I don't feel like I'm doing much with just that. So for this week, I just want to get a schedule down to make balancing school and goals easier.
That's all the updates I have this week. Don't forget to comment with your progress!
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Migraine. School. Gah.
Haven't had a post in a few days, but ohcrapitsthursday.
TL;DR: Debate, migraine all week, stupid freaking school, but a very sweet boyfriend.
We have a debate tournament next weekend, it's the first one I've had in months. I haven't debated in forever! I'm probably gonna get demolished since I completely ignored all news and practice during the break, but ooooh well, having time to be lazy and not worry about anything was totally worth it. I don't really care about this tournament anyway.
ADS is my favorite event, but I won't get to do it since there are no speech events at this one, just debate. ADS is 'after dinner speaking,' also called STE (speech to entertain). They're supposed to be funny speeches about socially significant topics. Mine's about superstition. I love it to death, it's so much fun to perform. I have a video of me giving it at Speech Night, so maybe I'll try to find a way to upload it. I'd love to be able to show more of my friends what I do with my life, and my ADS is perfect since it's only 10 minutes long and apparently pretty funny. Also, even though I'm way more of a debater than a speech person, I'm sure none of you want to watch a 45 minute debate round about infrastructure or China or whatever other random topic we get, haha.
Short post, but I'll have something better tomorrow. Basically just wanted to make my Thursday deadline to keep myself on-track.
Boring update stuff:
Super terrible week. Not as far as goals. Just felt sucky. I've had a constant migraine, so I've been ODing on meds every day. Stomach hurts when I eat. Haven't been able to do anything even resembling exercise because my head starts pounding from just standing up. Drinking TONS of water, though. Which is good in some ways, but I also think that constantly feeling dehydrated is probably not a good thing.
I don't think I'm sick, though. Maybe just exhausted. And pretty much everything is because of my migraine, so once that goes away I'll be fine. It's just not going away. Uuuuugh. killme.
Also eating like crap. But I get incredibly self-pitying when I have migraines and just kind of live terribly when I get them, so it's to be expected. "I can eat nothing but junk food for three days. I have a migraine. I deserve it." "I don't need to do homework. I have a migraine. I deserve it." "I don't have to brush my hair today. I have a migraine. I deserve it." I don't do it when I'm sick, but if I have a migraine I am the most lazy, self-indulgent, full of excuses person ever. But seriously. I totally deserve cake and three Snickers and pizza and ice cream and a popsicle. I have a migraine. Vegetables? Pffffft. Those are for healthy people.
And school started this week. FML. I would write more about that, but I don't think any amount of words could describe to you the intensity and depth of my hatred for school.
On the bright side, Anthony has been very sweet and took me to get a cupcake on Wednesday. So that was nice. I was very happy to have a cupcake.
I'll have something more interesting and less full of self-pity tomorrow, I promise.
(Or not. Because I have a migraine. And I deserve laziness.)
(And chocolate)
TL;DR: Debate, migraine all week, stupid freaking school, but a very sweet boyfriend.
We have a debate tournament next weekend, it's the first one I've had in months. I haven't debated in forever! I'm probably gonna get demolished since I completely ignored all news and practice during the break, but ooooh well, having time to be lazy and not worry about anything was totally worth it. I don't really care about this tournament anyway.
ADS is my favorite event, but I won't get to do it since there are no speech events at this one, just debate. ADS is 'after dinner speaking,' also called STE (speech to entertain). They're supposed to be funny speeches about socially significant topics. Mine's about superstition. I love it to death, it's so much fun to perform. I have a video of me giving it at Speech Night, so maybe I'll try to find a way to upload it. I'd love to be able to show more of my friends what I do with my life, and my ADS is perfect since it's only 10 minutes long and apparently pretty funny. Also, even though I'm way more of a debater than a speech person, I'm sure none of you want to watch a 45 minute debate round about infrastructure or China or whatever other random topic we get, haha.
Short post, but I'll have something better tomorrow. Basically just wanted to make my Thursday deadline to keep myself on-track.
Boring update stuff:
Super terrible week. Not as far as goals. Just felt sucky. I've had a constant migraine, so I've been ODing on meds every day. Stomach hurts when I eat. Haven't been able to do anything even resembling exercise because my head starts pounding from just standing up. Drinking TONS of water, though. Which is good in some ways, but I also think that constantly feeling dehydrated is probably not a good thing.
I don't think I'm sick, though. Maybe just exhausted. And pretty much everything is because of my migraine, so once that goes away I'll be fine. It's just not going away. Uuuuugh. killme.
Also eating like crap. But I get incredibly self-pitying when I have migraines and just kind of live terribly when I get them, so it's to be expected. "I can eat nothing but junk food for three days. I have a migraine. I deserve it." "I don't need to do homework. I have a migraine. I deserve it." "I don't have to brush my hair today. I have a migraine. I deserve it." I don't do it when I'm sick, but if I have a migraine I am the most lazy, self-indulgent, full of excuses person ever. But seriously. I totally deserve cake and three Snickers and pizza and ice cream and a popsicle. I have a migraine. Vegetables? Pffffft. Those are for healthy people.
And school started this week. FML. I would write more about that, but I don't think any amount of words could describe to you the intensity and depth of my hatred for school.
On the bright side, Anthony has been very sweet and took me to get a cupcake on Wednesday. So that was nice. I was very happy to have a cupcake.
I'll have something more interesting and less full of self-pity tomorrow, I promise.
(Or not. Because I have a migraine. And I deserve laziness.)
(And chocolate)
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